High School

High School... At one point in life you will experience this great place of events, classes, cliques, friends, sports, exploration and a time of figuring out how comfortable you really are in your own skin.

For me... High school was the hardest, ickiest, don't every want to return/ relive experience.... BUT in my dream world I think it's awesome, I have friends and everything is sunshine and rainbows!
Granted during high school I was an anxious, somewhat perfectionist, not sure I fit in kid. I wanted to be cool and have friends, but at heart I was "a good kid" that respected authority. what conflicting ideas ran through my mind was always a underlining confidence issue.

Anyone for the Corrina, Corrina Movie:
"I am Molly Singer, and there is no one in the world better than me."

It was a quote my mom had me repeat many times during my high school days: "I am Rachel Henry and there is no one in the world better than me."

My HS celebrated it's 25 anniversary and invited their alumni. I was so excited, but how odd it was when all my fears, anxieties and insecurities came flooding back to me when I saw the cheer coach, the elated high schoolers being goofy and watching the game. My excitment for seeing old "friends" and being apart of my HS history all went out the window and I completely clammed up and returned to internalizing my feelings!- something I have desperately worked on NOT doing!
Stange how something almost 10yrs ago still brings me a type of anxiety and insecurity, I mean really.. I am doing okay. I have a college degree, work full time and I got married.
 Maybe I don't have 2000 followers on twitter or whatever qualifies someone to be cool and popular. My phone may not have multiple text messages from people who want to get together and yeah I have days that my phone doesn't ring, but at the end of the day... I am a god daughter, sister, wife -who is loved.

So high school is over and I still have insecurity issues... But maybe it is just those people missing out on a person that cares deeply and does happy dances for the sick kiddos she works with.
Who is to say I am wrong when I quote my favorite movie "I am Rachel Henry and there is no one in the world better than me."